Reflection: Acts, week 19

When I was in high school, my mom let me borrow a “breakfast in bed” tray for an experiment I did. What did I do with it, you may ask? I wanted to see if people could tell the difference between Coke and Pepsi and which one they liked better. If you want to know the results, I honestly don’t remember, but it was a fun thing to do. I used the tray to hold little cups and serve them to people.

I left the tray somewhere in the school. My mom warned me when I took it to be careful. Don’t lose it.

I lost it. It was never retrieved. I remember the day well. My husband and I met in high school. We were outside talking for hours to the point where the school had been locked up for a good while; it was getting dark and chilly… I never saw that tray again.

I had to laugh a little when Jason said we typically take greater care when we are in charge of other people’s things because we don’t want something bad to happen on our watch. My poor mom… She borrowed me many things and I wasn’t always so good about giving them back. But let me tell you… If my sister borrowed something of mine and didn’t give it back, I would get so upset. You think I would learn. Or when someone stole my bag when I left it behind in the art room… I felt panicked knowing I might never see it again (and all I had in there was an old library card and maybe a dollar… I just really liked the bag).Luke 12

When I think about how everything we have is a gift from God, nothing is our own, a few things come to mind. We will need to answer for what we did with what God gave us, which could feel stressful or scary. But have you ever thought of it as peaceful? If you’ve been given a business to run with people you’re in charge of, I can only imagine there’s pressure to make sure you lead in an honest way. If you’re a parent, there’s pressure to make sure you raise your children in the right way. Because if you don’t do your job, that’s on you.

So what am I saying? How could any of that be peaceful?

You feel worried about your kids and how they’ll turn out. You worry about the business you’re running. If you do what you can do, God will take care of the rest. God gave all of us people, places and things. We need to do our best with them, but we need not worry. I once heard worrying is like a rocking chair. It keeps moving back and forth but it never gets anywhere.

Being just a few months away from having our first child, I’ve been extra cautious about everything. There’s nothing wrong with that. Caution can be healthy to a certain point, but I found myself getting way too worried about every little thing. God reminds me she is a gift given to us by him. He is in control. And I’m constantly, humbly and gratefully reminded he saved her life, and I wouldn’t be this far along without his gracious intervention. She is in his hands, and always has been, since the moment she existed. Worrying shows a lack of faith and a lack of trust. But we’re not perfect, so chances are, we’ll find ourselves in that rocking chair again. When that happens, we need to remember God is in control. Speak truth. Inhale truth. Luke 12:24-26 says “Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?”

We can and should do our very best with all God has blessed us with. One day we will have to stand before him. Take care of what he has given you, and remember it’s all his and always was. We ourselves are not our own.

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